Photograph Title: Barb

"As I was looking through the view finder I was thinking of myself. I saw the barn in the distance and I realized it wasnt in focus, but the barb was.
Im the barb, Im clear on who I am, where Ive been, but my future is not clear. I diffently have the site of it but not the clarity of it."







Im a random person. I have ideas every 30 sec. running through my head. Awkardly they all fall in the same line of work. I know where I want to go, I know what I want to do with the remaining part of my life.I see it, but its out of focus, I have no clue how to achieve these goals. I dont know what path to take.

I realize Im not your normal girl next door. Im a strong person, but fragile in so many ways. I guard myself from people and my own ideas, to the point that I hurt my own ambitions and the people that surround me.

What I want from my life, is the ability to share my photographs. I do not care to be famous, I just want my work to be known. I want my work to make people feel something, something they have never allowed themselves to feel. I want to walk into a book store and see my work on a shelf or walk into a gallery and see my work hanging on the wall. Like I said, I dont want to be famous. I want my work to be.

I want to share my story of my life. I want show people that there is calm after the storm. Sure you still have your battles, but their simply little earthquakes compared to the monsterous acts of a man. Rather its someone toying with your mind and body, or simply not having a father to call dad. (You get the point)

I want to travel... I want to photograph this amazing world we live in.

I know Im a mom and wife. And I have every intention on doing my best to keep them grounded,sain, happy. This I will never be unfocused about.

But when Im ready to leave this world. I want to be ready, I dont want to leave unfinished goals behind. I want to embrace my death, not mourn it. I want these things for me, I want to say " Yes I have accomplished in my ambitions. I have pushed through heartache after heartache. Ive accomplished mothering and being a wife. I have made my darkest moments my strength. Ive found my meaning in this life."

Elvis: If I can Dream

There must be lights burning brighter somewhere

Got to be birds flying higher in a sky more blue

If I can dream of a better land

Where all my brothers walk hand in hand

Tell me why, oh why, oh why cant my dream come true

There must be peace and understanding sometime

Strong winds of promise that will blow away

All the doubt and fear

If I can dream of a warmer sun

Where hope keeps shining on everyone

Tell me why, oh why, oh why wont that sun appear

Were lost in a cloud

With too much rain

Were trapped in a world

Thats troubled with pain

But as long as a man

Has the strength to dream

He can redeem his soul and fly

Deep in my heart theres a trembling question

Still I am sure that the answer gonna come somehow

Out there in the dark, theres a beckoning candle

And while I can think, while I can talk

While I can stand, while I can walk

While I can dream, please let my dream

Come true, right now

Let it come true right now

Oh yeah