Photograph Title: "Exposure"

This photograph was taken last month. My daughter and I went with a friend on a photoshoot. While my friend was doing her thing with her clients, me and my daughter wondered in the wheat grass. She was pretending to be lost in the overly consuming grass and this is one photo that I got that spoke to my heart.

One of my favorite songs is by Tori Amos, "1000 Oceans"

Years ago when I first heard this song I thought it was about
Love and Loss (romantically) Now, I know everyone has
different theories on song meanings, for me this song is for my daughter. A fear I have is being so consumed with myself and
my own ideas of how things should be that I would keep my child from finding her own identity. When I was in the postion of taking this picture, the only thing I remember feeling is terror, sadness. It looked as if my child was running from my inabilities of mothering. Like she was trying to find a place to hide from all the falling razor sharp descions that I have made or will havet to make as she grows. I only hope that my mentality will not jeopardize her way of thinking or her ability of being apart of society. For this reason I will always cry a 1000 oceans.

Being a mother is hard, not so much physically but emotionally. I only hope that my own insercurties will not inhibit me from raising a strong, independant, smart girl.

These tears I've cried I've cried 1000 oceans

And if it seems I'm floating in the darkness

Well, I can't believe that I would keep

Keep you from flying

And I would cry 1000 more

If that's what it takes

To sail you home

Sail you home Sail you home

I'm aware what the rules are

But you know that I will run

You know that I will follow you

Over silbury hill

Through the solar field

You know that I will follow you

And if I find you

Will you still remeber

Playing at trains

Or does this litte blue ball

Just fade away

Over silbury hill

Through the solar field

You know that I will follow you

I'm aware what the rules are

But you know that I will run

You know that I will follow you

These tears I've cried

I've cried 1000 oceans

And if it seems

I'm floating in the darkness

Well I can't believe that I would keep

Keep you from flying

So I will cry 1000 more

If that's what it takes

To sail you home

Sail you home

Sail you home

Sail you home